Letting go

I didn't think I was a control freak until about 2 weeks ago. I was waiting for a response from someone and I kept thinking, "Why haven't they written me back?" Once they did finally write back and I didn't receive the response I was hoping for, I got disappointed. Looking back, I have to think, "Why? Why was I disappointed?"

It's because deep down I needed to be in control of the situation. Luckily God--through his Word and the confirmation from my Sisters--helped me to realize that the situation is not mine to deal with. I did what I was told to do, and now it is up to the Lord to work in the hearts of those who needed to hear His words.

"I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow." 1 Corinthians 3:6-7

What a blessing it is to be used by God, though. To hear a distinct call and to have the courage to answer it. I haven't been this encouraged and refreshed for a long time. I hope that as I continue to study His word and spend time with Him, I will hear more from Him and be obedient to whatever He calls me to.